A Metalhead And His Cock Face

horns be raised readers. Its finally time to update this blog again.

Metalheads are extremely judgemental, I will confess. This is because we are often judge. Judge based on our music. Sam Dunn himself say, that most people think that heavy metal is a less valid form of music, for less valid form of people. Because of this, metalheads have developed a higher tendency to defend themselves whether necessary or not. Take ANY metalhead, if they see another of their brethren on the streets. wearing an iron maiden tshirt for example. metalheads love meeting more of their kind. because they understand what the other person feels. The metalhead would know that this stranger in his own gang has defended metal, stood for it, and will stand for it as long as metal lasts in his/her life. Thats why we will stand forever, as Manowar has sang, DIE FOR METAL lml

Ill talk abit about myself. Im a cinafuck. Living in Malaysia, 97 kgs, 180 cm tall and a hardcore headbanger. but what most people define me, is my constant angry face. A pissed off look that stays on my face 24/7. People try to be nice by calling it the angry face. but really, what they really meant, was "that was a cock face"

were all humans, its hard not to judge a person based on his looks. We all do... But in the end its the thought that really counts. You can either think of it, than tell yourself to stop, or you can think of it and believe it. And with me looking like an angry fat asian, wearing a sleeveless leather jacket with "lamb of god", "arch enemy", and "bathory" sewn onto it, a cap that says "slayer" and a tattoo of a skull on one arm, its pretty damn hard to walk into a room without getting any attention. BAD attention.

SO then i have a cockface. I did not choose to have it. neither do i HAVE the luxury of choosing a face like edward cullen. So based on 21 years of living as me, here are some pros and cons of having what they call it a COCK FACE, being a metalhead, and having an oversized body.

PROS

- People generally dont mess with you. When people see a potential chance to start an argument with you, they usually dont. Come on, there are better candidates to pick on rather than an angry cinafuck fatass.

- Lower chance of getting robbed. Robbers want what they want, and they pick easier targets to rob. COMEON if YOU were the robber would you rather rob an old lady or a fat angry asian?

- relatively convenient in shopping malls. Put on your biggest fuckface, and walk in a mall in a straight line. People avoid you. For once you can walk in ONE UTAMA in a straight line without touching another person!!

- People tend to look to you as an elder brother. Through out highschool and college, i have tons of people older than me calling me big brother. Probably due to the cockface and my extra large body.

- Seeing lalas cower in your presence is relatively satisfying.

- kids that act gangsta will be afraid of you. This, as well is relatively, if not, EXTREMELY satisfying

- You get double like points when you play the nice guy. when a guys that looks like a criminal plays nice, people tend to appreciate them more.

- people think youre a good kid when youre out with your parents. Try going to the market with your mom. The chicken sellers will comment on you being a great kid. People expect you to have no respect when you have a cockface

CONS

- momma stares. Get into a restaurant and sit opposite facing a mom and her kids. The mom WILL look at you and look at her watch. If her kid stares at you, she will ask the kid to eat and stop looking at you.

- cock faces cant stand cock faces. So other cock faces may give you bigger cock faces and are probably harder to hang out with.

- people thinks youre gonna slaughter them. When a random grandpa gives you a comment. Just look him in the eye. He will run. Even if you didnt mean anything.

- people find you hard to bring home. Friends have avoided bringing me to their homes. Afraid that theyre parents might think that theyre mixing with the wrong crowd.

- Your own parents will constantly tell you to stop cockstaring waitresses when all you did was really just staring at their boobs.

- You become relatively easy to insult. You can crack your mind on in genius insults and people will just shoot you down with COCK face and every one will laugh

Thats all i can think of. Im sure if you give me a day id think of a hundred more stuff to right. But for now lets just leave it as that. People whom continue to judge metalheads with cockface, lets hope this clears everything. Im a great man, kind and nice. horns up mofos

Family of a headbanger

Whatsup metalheads and people of the world. So chinese new year just passed. Somehow, only after chinese new year, do i feel like the new year has started. This happens to me every year.

So chinese new year is supposed to be a celebration of happiness, prosperity, and reunions. My family had all these things, however, they were all done only on the surface. All meaning is lost, the celebration that held great deep meaning now seem like an empty shell, a car with no tyres, a fist with no knuckles. Having a reunion dinner in a restaurant is just pathetic, let alone the bill forcefully being pushed onto my father alone, politics, money mindedness, and red sausage slaps. All i could say is that my family had always been a fucked up one. full of backstabs, betrayals, and politics. However, i could careless of whatever they want or do. Im tired of carying that gun into battle, not giving a cracked penny if i had my guts spilt allover the place. i know only one thing -obey my elder brother, protect my mother, and defend my younger brother. Nothing else matters

So as soon as i got back from my home town, the symposium gang of course organized an outing. Twas a fun day, having visiting several of my closest friends homes and going crazy in a karaoke. Each outing we draw deeper bonds. we become closer, care more for one another. Point your finger at any of those fuckers in the symposium gang, Ill tell you, he/she would die for one another. This is whats most important. none of us are blood related. But the bonds we hold for each other stands stronger than that of any other blood relatives i have. And this, in my opinion, is a blessing.

We keep expecting darkness, this is useless, there is plenty of darkness in this world. thats why its important to do the right.

Well away from that, its time for metal. If youre into folk metal, heres one for you. orphaned land - ornaments of gold http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_j4p6OwTU4

that concludes this post. for metal. lml

Corpse on a cross

6 hours from now, ashes of pain will hit the studio for a refined recording of corpses in the river. I am hyped. Very happy at the bands progress. And very eager to do more in the future. Ever since the last record ive been thinking.. the lyrics were very shallow. Yes they were artistic, but the voice of blasphemy was very subtle... a little TOO subtle. And so i cracked my skull to come up with new lyrics. taking inspiration from some of the most blasphemous bands, such as slayer, lamb of god, behemoth, venom, and more.

And here i am laughing to myself, satisfied with my results. Cant help but smile to myself thinking " God damn this is gonna piss alot of people off". Yeah, inspired by Tom Araya. Now all thats left is the recording. Hahaha God bless us


verse 1
blood, has flooded the dirt
it burned the crucified corpse
a fraud, a king of sham
the lamb, was crushed in shame

perchorus1
and if you see not this fools facade
let me tell you that i am mightier than your God

chorus
wings and thorns pierced through em the devils claw
i see you corpses oh you waltzed within the gore
i feel the devil tear my chest looking inside
savouring my flesh i bleed i offer him to feed on me

verse2
the lies the darkness resides
the fool that met his demise
mutilated and covered with blood
his love spoken but so unheard

prechorus2
rip and tear your flesh as i brutally crush your pride
join me and witness the power of the dark one's might

chorus
wings and thorns pierced through me the devils claw
i see you corpses oh you waltzed within the gore
i feel the devil tear my chest looking inside
savouring my flesh i bleed i offer him to feed on me

solo

final chorus
wings and thorns stretched out proud the behemoth
the number of the beast will now rule with hate and sloth
i hear the devil whispering to me inside
the power of the beast will slay the blight and kill the kingdom of the sky

a message to those that are probably enraged by now - tough fuckin shit

for metal lml

Metal as metal - the beautiful and the powerful

I havent updated for a long time i know .. ive been lazy and so yeah no fuckin excuse for me. However, here i am, with an update.

People... dont understand, the beauty of heavy metal music. I can see it, people are prejudice against it, and label it as noise before even knowing what metal is all about. But look at the people ive influenced up till now, many have changed their views towards metal, many started to appreciate, some eeven agreed that metal is some of the most in genius, sophisticated music ever made.

However, metal is a very masculine form of music, so i can see why most people will take me or any metalhead as posers. They think by being metal were trying to be as macho as we can, they think that we like to be different. well heres a thick big middle fuckin finger for you to gag on. i give you a FUCK YOU. The sole reason why all you suckers think that way is ultimately because you guys ARE that way. You guys dress up all lala walking like a pimp and talkin about love. Fuckin Pathetic! next thing you get dumped you crawl like a radroach towards my feet. Lose that shit punkfucks and get the fuck up.

Anyways enough with the rantings HAHA LOL. Let me first talk about a band i quite recently discovered, SEPTIC FLESH. An atmospheric band. Very very interesting. Septic flesh is a GREEK metal band. YES GREEK METAL, means they sing about greek mythology. Their songs consist of sick twisted riffs. Not in a jumpy punkish way like Korn, but they have a distinctive style. Their beats are slow, their guitars are rough, slow, and disturbing, accompanied by sickening growling vocals. Theyre very powerful, and their material is very strong. Definitely a recommended band.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNuiXqGivpU

and enjoy the wall of death lml.

Within the past 3-4 years, ive had the hardest times in my life. and i have to say that i couldnt have done it without metal. that IS how important metal is to me, its more than just music, it has comforted my sorrows, burned my angers, and destroyed my weaknesses. It has made me strong. Of course i couldnt have done it without some people as well haha. YEAH YEAH You guys know who you guys are so wipe that smirk of your faces fuckin syok sendiri bastards HAHA!! to Howe, Miki, Redzuan, James, Jonas, Michelle, Aaron, nikke, and kevyn i raise my horns. STAY FUCKIN METAL, the beautiful and the powerful lml lml

heres one dedicated to you guys,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LWmCNe6NG40

Asses Of Pain

DAMN its only been such a short time since fest of the tritone is over but im already missing that stage. the power, the metal.
those that were present that day probably heard my band, Ashes of Pain-s first self written song. Since the mic was pretty fucked people probably couldnt hear shit. The song was called "Corpses in the river".
here are the lyrics for the song. please do comment and give me ideas...


blood, has flooded the dirt.
they burn, like crimson fingers
devoured black hearts they danced as they massacred
I feel my body burn and my insides turn to ice
and for the first time i saw the devil's very eyes

chorus
wings and thorns stabbed into me the devils claw
corpses floated as if they waltzed within the gore
I feel the devil tear my chest looking inside
savouring my flesh i bleed i offer Him to feed on me


condemned? fuck yourself
you're lied to and you lied with pride
and you act like your God can make you fuckin shine
i hear the antagonizing growling as two eyes stared
it glowed crimson and the colour of blood so red


chorus
wings and thorns slashed onto me the devils claw
corpses floated as if they waltzed within the gore
I feel the devil tear my chest looking inside
savouring my flesh i bleed i offer Him to feed on me

hahahaha how is it? some people told me it was cliche, some told me it was scary.. some even told me it wasnt dark enough. LOL ill try harder for the next song, BLACK JESTER... ive only written the chorus for that one.. here are the lyrics so far-

"black suns black seas burn in twisted lunacy.
under the tortures and torments,a crazy ecstasy.
vampyric hungers fed as the dark smile spread.
out it gushed... the blood so red"

lol me and my bro jeremy are still writing the riffs for this one. we will be doing our recording soon... stay tune mates!!! its a pain in the ass but its extremely ejoyable... metal for FUCKING life

METAL AND MATES - REASON TO LIVE

for videos and pic of the gig please visit my facebook profile...
so its been a long time since i last updated.
so festival of the tritone was a success... thank God. As you all know ashes of pain only formed roughly one month ago and already we are organizing a gig. This gig represents our image, because were not the only band playing on that day. If we screwed up our name will be known... for screwing up gigs hahaha. As rock/metalheads, were ambitious... much more ambitious than most other musicians... this can be clearly seen on studio walls. EVERY last note that is looking for recruits are of metal bands. This clearly show how passionate metal/rock musicians can be.. So i know for fact when these bands that i invited to join the fest of the tritone were told they had a gig, no doubt they will be pumped... and imagine if we were to screw up the gig... well be fucked lol.

ONE INCH CLOSER
BANBODO
THE METAPHOR
ASNAIVEKILLER

These were the bands that were invited. one inch closer was a rock band. they play mostly japanese rock, and they were good. They managed to deliver the flavour of their music in their way. This and the fact that they are the softest among the other bands make them the perfect start for the gig. Its like a punch in the face, and a garuantee of quality for the audience.

Banbodo ditched... whadya expect? theyre called band BODOH.

next was the metaphor. i honestly have no FUCKIN idea what genre to label them. They were an instrumental band, consisting of two guitarist, one bassist, one violinist, one keyboardist and one drummer. They were FUCKING good. Their music was intense, and passes for a soundtrack for any classic hollywood movie anyday. They were good, definintely a punch in the face. they double confrmed the gig quality. and delivered more than just plain music. You should be able to guess how good they are... i SELDOM and i mean SELDOM praise non metal bands....

next up was ASNAIVEKILLER, a metalcore band. They were the ones responsible for pumpng up the crazy bastards that were present on that day. I was one of them, and we moshed and headbanged. the pit was pretty brutal... with huge pakistani metalheads throwing themselves against people. It was fun, and asnaivekiller did an awesome job...

and the last to play was ashes of pain.. my band... since we didnt have enough original songs to play, we were forced to play a few covers... we did slayer-raining blood first. raining blood was a crazy start, brutal and fast.. fuckin awesome for some crazy headbanging... what do you think? i have an army of fucked pakistani metalheads to satisfy. Those dudes were awesome seriously... along with members of asnaivekiller. second, we played bodies of drowning pool, catchy, jumpy, and heavy. third we played eat you alive - limp bizkit. this song was also heavy and catchy. very suitable for intense headbanging... forth, we played our first self written song-corpses in the river... This song had our own style... it wasnt the slow gory cutting of knives like arch enemy. and it wasnt the brutal blundgeoning of a sledgehammers like lamb of god riffs... it was our own distictive style... it was made up of mostly complicated riffs, accompanied with rather slow paced drums.. heavy yet melodic at the same time... i thought it was awesome... was wondering what the others think...
and lastly, also our self written song, betrayal.. this song was made as an outro using some of my guitaist(kai)s previous bands riffs. it consisted of a two solos.. played by both guitarists... and a drum solo. So everybody had a chance to show some shit. And in my opinion it was crazily awesome. We made plenty of mistakes but nailed everything in the end.

everyone was mostly satisfied with the gig. And asnaivekiller actually said its the best gog theyve ever played in... not bad huh? not bad for first try anyway hahaha!!!

ONE more thing i need to blog about. before gig day, on the 30th... i lived the best day ive ever lived in my life. me, howe, and bruce had a drinking session in mikis place. We were drinking and drinking when miki suddenly decided to cook for us. So she told me to defrost the bacons under the tap. The rest then left the kitchen leaving me alone.. and the lights turned off. then sounded a happy birthday song and in they come with a gorgeous Tshirt. These fuckers had my ass surprised... i know if i were to talk about how gayly touched i was at that moments this post would never end.. so ill just end it easy... never liked touching shit anyways...
thank you...







thank you you crazy assed bastards!!!

FESTIVAL OF THE TRITONE

its been fuckin awesome so far. hangout with friends, chilling, and talking shit. Its been a pleasure teasing and laughing at you guys hahahaha thanks peeps for the good laughs!!!!

SO YEAH.... everyones working now. And i no longer have excuses to get out of home. Fuckin sucks balls. I mean YEAH i love video games and stuff but if you were to compare, I think chilling out with friends would be much more ......productive hahahahah.

but AT LEAST ive got something to look forward to.. 31ST OF AUGUST. NO not the national day. im not much of a patriot actually. But on the 31st, my newly formed band, ASHES OF PAIN will be performing live with 4 other bands. When it comes to music, nothing excites me more, nothing else could give me that satisfaction. And when you have realy dedicated bandmates, things will just be awesome.

Ive been in many bands, and played in many performances.. ive been a drummer, vocalist, or even both. But few bands could get that ball rolling like ashes of pain can. All five of us are tied tight. We knew what each of us could do and we trusted each other to do their part, no questions asked...



The other four bands which are performing are ASNAIVEKILLER, BANDBODO, METAPHOR, and ONE INCH CLOSER... ASNAIVEKILLER is a great band. ive played with them as a sessionist. They were a metalcore band.. and the members of the band were pretty much cool people. But the reason why i chose ANK over other bands to perform alongside me is more than just because they were a metal band, or the members are cool, or anything like that. The reason why i chose ANK was because they showed me the same respect before. They gave me opportunities before... And i should return the favour. Mutual respect between bands are more important than most people know. And also because mr GAYASS HOWE FOO is my gay partner so as a gay partner its only normal to let your gay partner perform alongside you right? LOL

ONE INCH CLOSER is a great band too. I was a witness of their musical abilities during their previous gig, groove in motion 3.. They play pretty much sentimental music and theyre definitely good at what theyre doing. BANDBODO according to Kai ( my guitarist ) is an insanely awesome malay metal band and metaphor according to gayass howe is also an amazing instrumental band.

ALL YOU PEOPLE THAT ARE READING!!! please do come and support ashes of pain LIVE @ LAvenue bar USJ1 !!!!! Especially you 4 whom i know as my blood siblings... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!! ticket prices are rm15 each

ALL HAIL METAL!!!!!!!!